Epstein victims say that the handling of the case by the Trump government is committed to its fear

They have the feeling that one of the victims of Jeffrey Epstein put it as if they were “deleted”.

While a civil war in Maga world is raging for President Donald Trump's decision, rejecting conspiracies that his most passionate supporters inspired that Epstein is part of a deep sexual gender trade, the women who have been sacrificed by the billionaire say from raw politics.

Four Epstein victims, who spoke with NBC News, say that the Trump government should uncover powerful men, shared the Epstein's preference for young women in need of protection and do not slow future law enforcement measures.

“They never really heal,” said Danielle Bensky, 38, who was a prospective ballerina when she said Epstein abused her two decades ago. “And with what happens now, it feels like we are deleted. All brave women who have reported … All the work we did to tell the world what happened to us, everything is deleted.”

The victims recently spoke to NBC News when Trump tried to appease the announcement that was noted by US general Prosecutor Pam Bondi that the “list of customers”, from which she claimed not to be on her desk, did not exist, and that Epstein's death in 2019, while he was waiting for court negotiations, was a prison and not murder, as was silent, as was as well as Many believe.

In view of what critics and allies describe as a serious threat to his presidency, Trump has alternately rejected the excitement from Democrats and commanded Bondi to release the transcripts of the Grand jury and other documents that could throw more light on the scandal.

On Thursday, the Wall Street Journal reported that Trump wrote a tedious birthday letter for Epstein more than two decades ago. NBC News did not see the original letter, and Trump gave him “a wrong thing”.

Bensky said her heart sank at the beginning of this month, when Bondi, who had strengthened Trump's election campaign, promised “tearing off the deep state”, a two -sided memo published that there was no references to a “stressful list of clients” by men who had sex with young women who were procured by the financier, and that their office would not be pursued any other punishment.

“I felt a wave of sadness,” said Bensky. “All of these years of attempt to achieve justice, only negated. There were only two sides that they were examined, without details about what happened to everyone. It is as if we never existed.”

For other victims, Epstein's reappearance in the news, such as the crack of the scab from a wound.

“The reality is, trauma is never in and did,” said the victim of Epstein, Teresa J. Helm, via e -mail to NBC News. “It is complex. It can take a lifetime to repair yourself. Different things can initiate a trauma reaction, and that is only daily life.”

Helm, who said she was hired to give Epstein massages and sexually attacked in the early 2000s, now works with victims for sexual assault for the National Center on Sexual Exploitation. She said what hope she had to get a level of justice was now gone.

“If the abuse of a person can be seen repeatedly at a certain point in time, and especially if promises of justice and promise of power structures that are finally taken into account, then essentially closed the door on their face and no longer opened for business – what?” Helm wrote in her e -mail.

The lawyer David Boies represented one of the most famous accusers of Epstein, the deceased Virginia Giuffre, who, in a deposition from 2016, claimed that Epstein and his now implicit accomplice had forced Ghislaine Maxwell to have sex with several mighty men, including Prince Andrew.

The British Royal recognized the cooperation with Epstein and approved an agreement with Giuffre, but denied the allegations.

Maxwell submitted a petition to the Supreme Court to clear her conviction of 2021 for recruitment and care for teenagers so that Epstein has sexually abused.

Boies said Trump, Bondi and others in the administration were only responsible for reviving the Epstein saga.

“It is now important because the administration has done such a big deal that they would publish a list of customers, and suddenly they did an 180-member turn and said we will not publish anything,” said Boies. “If you had never said anything, it would only have thought of moderate interest and conspiracy. It is the inconsistencies that have fueled things.”

Boies said that, what he knows, there was no document in the flight of evidence that he had checked and which was referred to as the “customer list”.

“I think you should publish the material after the promise, and if you don't do it, people will believe that they are hiding something and that cannot be tolerated,” he said.

Alicia Arden was a 27-year-old model and emerging actress when Epstein attacked her in 1997 in a hotel in Santa Monica, California, she said.

“I am annoyed when I hear his name,” said Arden about Epstein.

Arden said Epstein identified as a talent scout for Victoria's secret and she wanted to meet him. Epstein was a top consultant of the former CEO of Victoria, Les Wexner, but not a talent scout for the retailer.

“I really wanted to be in Victoria's secret catalog,” said Arden. “But then he grabbed me, tried to tear down my clothes, and said he wanted to” transform “me. I ran there and he hunted me.”

Arden, who submitted a police report after meeting Epstein, said she supported Trump, but believes that “there is a cover -up.”

“Pam Bondi already said in February and then she said the list was on her desk and now there is no list,” said Arden, who lives in Santa Monica. “She doesn't want something to come out and I don't understand why. Maybe the list is more terrible than we think.”

Another victim that has spoken publicly about how Maxwell set her erotic massages for Epstein, said NBC News that she was “frightened” when Bondi announced that there was no “list of customers” and that she would not pursue anyone.

“In the past, I have talked about what happened, and now I don't want my name to do anything with Epstein because I was afraid of what they could do to me and my family,” said the woman who agreed to talk to NBC messages about the condition that her name is not used because she fears the Trump management.

“I am not surprised that Trump now says we should stop talking about Epstein,” she said. “These people try to protect themselves.”

Bensky said that what happens now, like “Ground Hog Day for the #Metoo movement” and threatens the progress that all victims have undertaken when they confront their perpetrators.

“We need transparency and accountability for our daughters and future generations of young girls,” she said.

Now, a choreographer who works with dance troops of teenage, Bensky said that she has found comfort for many years by “some of the same tools that I use in my choreography to get into a meditative state”.

“I have worked with a group of young dancers in Hawaii lately, and sometimes I think about how there are so many girls that there are victims,” said Bensky. “I think I think how do I tell my students that the world is not always dark and painful? Because I have been sad for a long time.”